im not ..

i'm not MERDEKA yet huhu even my exam just over this evening huhu..

RESEARCH!!!! you killing me arghhhhh!

--> baru b'angan2 nak lepas dendam this nite (sleep like no more days left ekekeke)
--> look like i need to mirroring me myself in front of u mr.Lappy for the whole nite i guess huhu
--> alike start doing my research i personally more likely doing my blogging and of cos

my OTFB + OTTwitter hehe

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hey baby!!
i can't wait my parcel arrival tomorrow hehe

--> my new lens MX21
- i wonder how do i look wearing those lens hahaha weirdo i guess--> who cares,rite? lalala~
--> and also my yummy milky secret
- i dunno how to explain this kind of things lar konon2 but wait and see saja lar kio hahaha
- my target is 1 week from tomorrow or maybe start from this sat

My Day

i remember what my lecturer said last Monday, she said " class, do your revision OTPK and OTAK and i don't want anyone of you study OTFB..
her word til now keep on buzzing my head
cos unlike doing revision OTPK and OTAK
i'm instead did revise my OTFB, OTTwitter and OTBlogging hahaha
--> mcm mna lar maw lulus nie klu kejadian dia mcm nie huhu

today my class like always did OTFB tutorial
and the topic of cos laughing at peoples behavior
i did try to focus on my revision
but sorry to say i am easily distracted with my environments huhu
how poor my attention span
and if not the environment factors
the problem occurred because of my biological clock
--> daydreaming!!!
that's my initial crass behavior
what intervention can i do to treat my own crass behavior??
@-@

ok! back to OTFB tutorial today..
they showed video untitled (actually it have but i dunno hehe)
but it's all about babies world
and of cos the video make me emo this day huhu..
how i wish me myself at my home sweet home
playing with the babies in the house
--> mama,missed both of you dear ~Ryan & Dylan
@-@

Sorry my dear blog

it's been a long time i didn't visit my blog..
sorry baby.. i was too lazy to update u..
ok!
now, let me do sharing here
( sharing is caring bha kan hehe)

i am happy because

• ada newborn baby sana uma - Baby Dylan Michiro (betul kha sy eja nie?) --> bila lar mama can meet u this huhu
  
• abg Rio sudah engage - yeah! thn dpn ada aramai tii sna uma n wlcome to the family Kak Ida
  
• me in sem 5 already - yeah! thn dpn maw grad suda ( bule kawen suda ekekeke) --> confirm klu mum sy baca nie,kna timbak sy ekekeke
  
• me & roomate punya bisnes bjalan agak lancar jg - yeah! ada side income suda (x sbr maw kaya ekekeke)
  
• last but not least --> mr.bf is always by my side ekekeke (maw jg sy announce tp sy malu ekekeke)

yg wat sy x happy

• maw p practical setting suda lg - peads bha this sem so meaning dia sem nie mmg susah plus dpt hsptl yg susah maw dpt markah tggi huhu
  
• my research belum siap lg - gara2 keMalasan & otak terlampaw byk idea so xtaw maw wat mcm mna.. mcm mna lar sy maw grad thn dpn nie? huhu
  
• ada stalker dlm hidup sy - haish!! ini lar sy x suka nie.. klu sy cntik xpa jg ini hodoh ja... apa bha ko maw dr sy ar??? ( mcm penat suda sy tnya nie soalan ma tue org & of cos jwpan dia is SCARY to me)
  
• maw exam lg - ini lar yg PALING sy x suka.. knapa lar every sem ada exam.. mcm sy rasa sy pandai suda bla tgk itu notes tp bla exam susa jg lar maw jawab hehehe

yg wat sy broken hearted

• duit elaun buku x masuk2 lg jd sy x bule wat shopping2 day wat masa nie huhu (sabar ja lar)
  
• sy x dpt blk time cuti raya sbb tiket mahal & even ada org sggup sponsor(mr.Daddy) tp biar lar.. kesian nnt bil kredit kad my mr.Daddy melambung --> pdhal sy x sggup bayar balik hehe
  
• sy maw bli dslr tp blm kesampaian even ari tue sy p survey2 harga dia mmg byk promo skrg tp mr.Bf x bg bli huhu (mcm lar sy mnta dia duit bha huhu) --> tambah skt ati dia suda ada toys bru.. sy???

too many suda sy sharing caring nie..hehehe
next time lg sy sharing is caring ar..

p/s: my friends noticed my acne hilang sudah hehe.. x lama lg sy jadi cute suda lar nie kan ekekeke
apa rahsia anda???? ahaks!!! tggu sy cantik lu lar baru sy share hehehe <--prasan kan!!!

RSVP

i was listening to RSVP's song

and suddenly
this 3 words pop out from my mind
I LOVE U!!!
yes! that 3 words that hard to came out from my
very own mouth
i need to be open to myself now
i want to say those words to someone
but it's really awkward to say it hahaha~
damn me i guess LoL~
then darling, i guess i just write it down
to let u know
(",)

love me no matter what

i was looking plus reading my own blog
while listening to
Nothing's Gonna Change My Love For You
*so touchy*huhu~
and i found this words at my love gadget

Three primary ingredients of a successful relationship - Love, Trust and Respect

and i wonder did my relationship based on those three ingredients ~ love,trust and respect??

Love
For me this is a strange feeling that can be one of the most amazing in all the world. Sometimes the emotions associated with love are blissful, and there are times when they can really hurt. Mostly all the time actually. When in love automatically we are ready to let our self be hurt (really??? ayoyo~) we are giving him/her the power to break our heart, but trusting them not to. This is what we called interpersonal love.

Trust
For me this is happen between both emotional and logical act. We trust someone because we have faith.
By trust, we let him/her to take advantage of our vulnerabilities but expecting they will not do this.. If i trust him, will he gave me earth?? If i betray his trust what will happen? Hunt me to the ends of the earth?
*trust*trust*trust
i need to glue the words in my mind cos' i am the person who is not trust anyone except myself (^_^)

Respect
For me, respect me and i respect you. Enough!! Simple to be with me,rite?? ~lalalala~

so conclusion that i can make here are i may be in love with him but i not trust him and i do respect him cos' he respect me but he might lose if he didn't handle me with care (^_^) i'm fragile what!! hahaha
so love me no matter what cos i was made
to be loved and understood

love

~valentine day~
he called late at night to wish
to say how much he loved
how much he cared
and
how much he missed
by telling all
that
i just realize
'i got u'
but
bear in mind
am scared of losing u

when the three words appear
just wanna add it "too"
but
it stuck
and i know
u're dissapointed
i'm sorry
i can't let myself too
the words is so meaningful to me
and i want to keep it
til the right time

deep inside
hope u know
hope u understand
what my feeling are
my action speaks louder
than what
my heart saying..

truth of my heart~

look!
i don't know how to say the word
I LOVE U
but
if u know
if u can see
what my heart saying
then u know
that words
always
for u