Okukuro kou noh koupusan

I was listening this song sang by Francis Landong "Okukuro Konoh Koupusan" and I keep on repeating it. I am not boring when I heard this song. I don't know why. Maybe because the rhythm is so touching for me lar --> sign symptom i'm missing someone huhu..
I don't know what this Dusun song meant for.. maybe "how are you,love".. I am kadazan but honestly I really2 not expert in this language.. but some of the words I know the meaning but I just don't know how to talk in kadazan.. shame on me :(
Ok! Let me quote a few lyric and I try my best to translate from my very own understanding^^

• okukuro ko koupusan (how are u love)
  
• ososogigit kou noh daa (hope u r fine)
  
• daa ko poh kumaa dogo (???)
  
• ososonong oku ii ( im also fine)
  
• totuong osongulunanku (alone in the night)
• oipii koginavan ditoo (dreaming of our love)
  
• koruhang oku do modop (accompanied me to sleep)
  
• momolingos langad ku dikaa ( treat my feeling of missing u)
  
• oipii ku iika koupusan sinta ( i'm dreaming of u)
  
• mulongpiat poh ii posik oku (????)
  
• sundung sopii sonduu opurimanan ku id doros ku (even we r far away i feel u near)
  
• koupusan okukuro koh noh (love how r u)
  
• totuong id toloid (in the night)
  
• osogit opurimananku (i felt cold)
  
• sogit tongus tongotuong ( cold by night wind)
  
• imang poh sorou dikaa ( want to think bout u)

*hahaha.. i don't know if it correct but based on my understanding this is the result^^

Correct me

Correct me if i am wronged!!!!
No need to teased me cos I know where is my limit.
I know I'm not good in theory so do in my practical.
I am blurred with everything. I got panic attack since I was kid.
So, how I want to change it?
I admit I am nervous and I don't like peoples look at me when I'm doing my work.
Especially stared at me. All my worked seems clumsy and ugly from the very start u looked at me.
I don't need attention from others. Cos' I am an ordinary person with no specialty.

Honestly, this is hard for me! Totally!!!
Tension tahap dewa i tell u!
WTH!
Deep inside I want to cry. Cry out loud. But I can't! I need my family. I need my baby.
I need God. Arrrrggghhhh!
Please help me!
I can't stand it anymore. This 3 weeks killing me hardly.
No sleep time. No leisure. No pamper time...
I want my old days!
Luckily, I remember my family hopes..
Just be strong my dear self.. U can do it.
U can go thru in God's willing..
Just have faith on God and urself.
Amen~

God

I was touched when i saw this couple who have kids that's not normal like other kid. Their son diagnosed as CP spastic quadriplegia and daughter got this kienfield syndrome (if im not mistaken) plus cleft palate. I know deep down their heart they sad because of their life. Could u imagine as a parent and ur children is not normal and the rest of ur life ur child need u, totally dependent. How sad! Even when they make a jokes even laugh together their heart are broken into the pieces everytime they look at their child.
Im lucky enough because i was born as a normal person. Even though i am ex premature baby, i still survive and grow as a normal kid with a normal development..
Lucky enough, that i don't have those kind of condition.
I was touched when i look at this unlucky kids. Im trying my best to give my best to them.
Everytime they show some improvement even head up their head without support, i was too happy for them.
God, help me through all this things. I want to help them.
But I know I was weak during this practical. I'm losing myself.
Cannot control my mind even my own self.
I am out of my mind every time I make a moved..
And I know I bring together my family hopes and dreams.
I don't want to let them down..
God Help me... AMEN

Miss ya^

1 am in the morning and i still sitting in front of my lappy doing my CS presentation. i thought it simple just copy and paste from Microsoft Word to Power Point but im wrong. too much modification that i need to do to make it superb presentation hahaha^^ hopefully i can make it true! ~ sepa suru tdo ja kja semlm and td siang p GM lg.. luckily x p pekan, confirm x pndai pulg^^
wwooooohhooo!! i got a called all the way from Brunei... mmmmmuuuuaaahhhh hahaha~ punya gete sy ekekeke
after a week my phone silent from message and call from him ja lar..ekekeke
haiyaaa!! i am totally damn miss him so much dunno how to explain it
but i am surely all people out there who are falling in love know the feeling rite??^^
susa jg klu amik PJJ nie taw huhu padan muka sy..gatal sgt^^
klu dkt xpa lar jg
plg x best klu OS p brunei huhu
message 1 hal, pa lg call fulaaammmmaaakkk! payah geng..
1 msg da lar 60 sen pa lg call wwwuuuuaaahhhh bankrupt org!
klu c kwn p OS d brunei, 1 mggu mcm 1 thn plak ekekeke
sbb x msg & call bha
tp klu ari2 msg & call ada ja maw d gaduh ekeke..
kpd sesape yg tbaca blog nie ( bgs klu ada yg bca hehe^^) buat2 xtaw suda lar ar ttg content blog sy nie.. nie cuma tmpat sy meluahkan perasaan --> yalar! mna da org sudi dgr sy mbebel ari2, bgs g sy story2 ckit cni..
klu ada idea yg mcurah2 bru sy bgtaw lar tp klu x tue, nie je lar story2 sy nie.. (psl dunia sy) ekeke^^

My own

it's saturday evening
am sitting in front of lappy with blunted face
i just couldn't imagine my self cryin in front of my frens
how fool am i..huhu

i want to be strong
that's all i need
BUT
i was weak and alone
couldn't express my own thoughts
thing i can do is only pray
that the way where i can find PEACE

my mind was block with no idea at all
i am scared of my own self
i don't know what happen to me
i wish i can fix
but i'm drown
then

OkaY

Today's holiday --> 16th September and we were stuck all day long in our rented house or should i say ROOM huhu.. Doing our own task. Me of course with the earphone stuck in my ear watching House and listening my player ( could u imagine i watched movie and listening music at the same time?? hahaha) plus FB'ing (chat with mr.bf) and blogging^^.. Husna lying on bed with her own lappy and Michele did the same with Husna but she asleep after she convinced us she want to study hahaha^^
Yeah! Actually we all already promised to ourself yesterday that we want to start our study last night. But at last, we ended as SLEEPING BEAUTIES hahaha^^ and all the books still lock themselves inside our bag hehe..
OK! Then today we suppose to start our revision and yet we ended ourself by wasting our times once again! hahaha.. Daddy SEEEeeee!!! Mcm nie lar anak ko nie.. x pndai study hehe

Finally

hey my lil blog!
ur owner finally at Ipoh Perak right now..
Watched House in her lappy while blogging in this small room that she & her friends rented..
lalalalala~
Feeling like check-in hotel owh hehe^^
with aircond & the bathroom inside a room huhu what else i can say..
im lucky enough to have this room even it Quite expensive for ME --> RM200 per person & per month owh
lucky that there is no RATs running here & there while we were sleeping --> this happen to one of my friend while she doing her practical here
I can't imagine the rats running here & there, smiling or giggling at me while im sleeping or even worst tickle my toes ( eeeeeewwwwwhhhhhhh!!!!! help me world.. I can't stuck in one room with RATS eeeeeee!!! geli! )
OK! stop the story bout the rat.
let's continue with the mall here..^^
Since came here i'd visited only 2 malls that i can said quite near from us..
Greentown Mall & Ipoh Parade
Greentown Mall --> besar lg tue Megalong owh.. yg sy suka wafer dia murah compared d kolej & plus sna ada mobile city (i'm eye-ing Nokia E5, Nokia E72 & also SE Xperia there hahaha^^ murah ei.. gatal my tgn maw p bli suda hehehe^^ BUT yg x best mr.bf bg warned me not to buy those things or i will not get my own DSLR huhu) but he promised me to looked once he back from Brunei hehe^^ ada chan lar sy dpt hp bru nie kikikiki^^
lg sy suka sna ada bowling tp x cinema huhu..
Ipoh Parade --> nie tmpat kira dekat jg lar ma tmpt tgl pdhal maw ampus sy jln kaki huahuahua
sna ada apa ar??? mula2 msk sy rasa mcm d SOGO then xlama mcm d Mid & x lma mcm d 1B hahaha^^ penat kaki sy bjln nie..adei x smpt sy round habis..
yg sy smpat captured in mind ada GSC & Bowl, Marrybrown, Sushi King & byk lagi lar..
maw ja sy bgtaw ada kdai cina sna hahahaha^^
what else im gonna to let you know ar???
--> SOON! i need to learn how to naik bus here or sy jd papa kedana by next week!
ahaks!!
thanx to Husna for her kue raya..
syiok owh klu ada stock kue raya in front of ur eyes kan hahaha^^